Saturday, September 18, 2010

I'm not happy.

I love Joel. I swear I do. It's like, last night at the dance, I was dancing and stuff trying to show off and he might have looked at me a handful of times. I swear, I feel so stupid. In every single relationship I've been in I call the shots. But know, I'm looking like a loser chasing after him. plus, he's going to snow ball with an eighth grade slut. I could totally ruin her social life if I wanted to, but I'm not going to. For some reason, Joel is holding me back. If he's happy with her, then I'm not going to kill her. I know that sounds so cheezy, but I swear, that's my problem. I don't remember if I told you guys about the guys in my tenth grade english? Well, if I didn't, I'll tell you. If I did, Skip the next few sentences. -These two guys sit next to me and they always smile at me and talk to me but I don't like them. I like Joel. UGH! I just wish that I had the balls to walk up to him and kiss him, but no. I'm a puss. Damn, I just wish I could hold him. I'm sorry for being so boring, but this boy is comsuming me. Better post yet to come, pinkie swear.
X's and O's, Hannah. ♥

P.s.-I didn't get homecoming. (:


  1. I only just started reading your blog so i dont really know the whole Joel story. But i'm sorry that yall arent together. I can tell that you reallly care about him. Damn, an 8th grader and he's in high school? thats kinda..yeh.
    i'm sorry you didnt get homecoming

  2. Hannah, it may seem like you love Joel now, but the truth of the matter is you don't really know what love is yet. No teenager does. I mean I hear girls gushing over their boyfriends saying "Oh my gosh I LOVE him" and it gets me angry because they can't love a boy when their only 12,13, or 14. Do you understand? This boy is totally not worth it. If he can't see your beauty (in&out) and would rather hang out with a slutty 8th grader, let him make that mistake. One day in this world you'll find that truly lovely boy who notices you and loves you for who you are, and you'll be with him for the rest of your life. I promise. Lots of endless love!
    Sorry about homecoming, you absolutely deserved it!

  3. I know that feeling. Way. To. Well. It's like this stupid boy has invaded my mind and you can't think straight. Sigh...

  4. Okay thats a little weird no a lot weird that Joel,a highschooleer is going out with an eighth grader. And i am so sorry you didnt get homecoming,i guess there's always next year.



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