Thursday, November 11, 2010
So shut up and kiss me. ♥
When I see you with her, my head starts to throb. My eyes get blurry, and I know I should look away. I can't. My eyes are locked. The world is moving without me. My friends gently nudge me to the side and ask me if I'm okay. Of course, they don't know the half of it. I act sly, nonchalant, and fine. But on the inside, I'm running into my room, locking the door, and hidding under the covers with my iPod on HIGH. I don't know how many pairs of headphones I can go through for these guys. I just fall to quickly. I get to excited. I need to stop.
X's and O's, Hannah. ♥
P.s.-My life is kind of jacked right now. This guy, Michael, and I have history. We've practically been together for two years, unofficially, of course. We were on again-off again. A mess, for sure. I never knew that I had legit feelings for him up until this "Ashley" chick came in. Sure, she's nice. Pretty? No. Everyone tells me she's a downgrade. I try hard not to hate her. Its not her fault. But, she is the reason I'm upset all the time. The reason I'm constantly choking up in school. She's the reason I'm always looking at the ground. It seems like My confedence is shot. Believe me, I was the cockiest person you'd ever meet. Now, I'm faking really bad. Then, last night, he texted me. He texted me first. It last for about three hours, then it just stopped. He still has a girlfriend. I was depressed. Oh well, it's better then nothing. Right?