Sunday, July 11, 2010

I'd like a big round of aplause, to all of you. You saved me.

I'm crying, right now.
I read all of the comments on my last post,
and it made me feel better about what's going on.
I wasn't doing it for attention,
I swear.
I want to send it to my mother,
in an email with the words "Think About It"
as the title.
I'm sure that her thinking about it would hurt
her too.
I'm not going through with it.
I talk to my best friend Georgi,
and she said that if I wasn't living,
then who would be her best friend?
I answered you'll always be replaced,
now it's my time.
She said that if she ever found out
that I hurt myself, she'd do the same.
I could never imagine her doing that.
I'm not going to do it.
I've promised myself just to talk to my parents,
save all of my money and send
my parents on a nice, private
vacation on the beach somewhere.
That might help them.
But just know, you have all saved me.
From a demon that's inside not only me,
but everyone, everywhere.
I'm better now.
And I promise, I'm going to talk to my parents.
I'll keep you posted.


  1. This was a huge sigh of relief. We all love you Hannah and wouldn't want you to do anything to hurt yourself. You made the right decision, and you should know that were always there for you no matter what. Even if it's virtual. Lots of endless love <3

  2. i was just about to leave a comment telling u that u shouldn't do it, but then i saw u post. i'm glad that u chose to not to hurt yourself, Hannah, bcuz in the end u'd also hurt everyone else. and yes, talking to ur parents is the best thing to do. my parents got divorced when i was 4 and my mom used to talk to me all the time and tell me that it wasn't my fault.
    good luck!

  3. thank you so much, Jade! And Talia, I already commented on your blog, but thank you a bunch! <3

  4. I'm so glad you're feeling better :)
    I don't like when people in the blog world feel this way, I feel so helpless.. :(


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