Saturday, April 7, 2012

A drop in the ocean, a change in the weather. I was praying the you and me might end up together.

I really have no clue what to do with myself. I'm so clearly falling for this amazing guy. When I say amazing, I mean it. Sheldon's the sweetest and kind-hearted guy I've ever met. The problem? I'm so terrified of being rejected that I refuse to put myself out there and tell him how I feel. I could very well tell him how much I like him, but what if he doesn't feel that way? I mean, I think he does, but who can ever be sure? My confidence is so shot, and I don't know why. We get along so well. I had a volleyball tournament three hours away, and his sister plays on my team. We stayed overnight at this hotel, and we swam together and flirted and hugged and it was perfect. I just wish ever weekend was like that. I, however, am too scared to put myself out there and tell him how I feel. I've had multiple chances at relationships, however, I'm so afraid of getting hurt, I refuse to get attached. The last time I did, it ended messy. It's still messy, and I don't want to drag anyone else down with me. Isn't it sad? I'm still scared because of something that happened a year ago? That's it, though. I'm going to put myself out there, I need to take a chance. I need to move on, and live my life, no one else's. I need serious help with my confidence, though. I'll let you know how it goes.
X's and O's, Hannah.♥


  1. You're strong and beautiful. I'm proud of you- go ahead, take a risk. Put yourself out there. Perhaps you'll look back and realize that it was the best decision you've ever made.

  2. You are absolutely amazing &if Sheldon doesn't want you than that's his loss! Also don't fear rejection or previous relationships b/c those horrible guys helped you get to where you are now as a person. It's better to have a life of "oh wells" than "what ifs."


Kiss my heart.